Long time no post old Blog

Hello Hello All.

It has been a long, long time since my last log back.

What’s been up?

WORK, persona life which have bags full of good, bad and just plain weird issues.

The fact that Ragnaboard was down a lot due to the e-PLDT connection errors came both as a blessing and a curse to me.

Curse: I've been lagging on what's going on with my moderator group and updates with RB/RO. Being I travel a lot, I'm nor always home or am available to speak to any of my LU colleages. Not to mention some of my old contacts have moved on to other companies after several years in LU.

If I didn’t leave LU ( Physically Office wise) I myself would have been in my 5th year there.

Blessing: Not being able to mod which is like a 2 hour obsession for me on a normal afternoon or late night means I have a good hour or so to do other stuff. Or just plainly relax.

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On other news, Its been work home, work home for me. I had a couple of adventures along the way. Such as recently tracking down my grandfather whom his grave I have not visited in 20 years. There's that friend of mine who ran away from home ( she's 24) that cooked up quite the drama when she stayed our house.

Been watching a lot of movies. Good movies gone bad like Jonah Hex and the recently massacred version of Avatar: Last Airbender ( damn you M. Night !!!! )

I finally did some professional photography shots of my pets. Am SOOOOOO happy about that. here is a shot of my cat Silver with a Canon DSLR

I am looking forward to my birthday this year, as I plan to do something physically adventurous, which celebrates the fact i can walk again after recovering from a nasty fall and undergoing PT.

Well this is all for now. Happy July everyone and till my next update.

Birthday week

Birthday week

I didnt realized how fast my bday was approaching until my laptop told me it was already the 15th.

Its still a few days short of the B-day but since budget has been tight, Ill just have a cupcake for my bday cake.

I'll be attending a Bridal bazaar on my bday too, I got a free pass ( sorta) so I'll get to sample some free wedding cakes. At least I have cakes ( damn you Goenitz where are u lately)

On the other hand, I have finally relinquished my Ragnaboards role as Moderator...sorta.

I always thought that, I would never have to be touched by the "political games" Level Up tends to play with its employees from time to time. I have my own share of horror stories, that I personally have witnessed from former co-workers and some even got a few hits and misses myself. If not for a few good friends in LU who knew of my naiveness that helped me out before

However, most of them are gone now.

I left being a Moderator in Ragnaboards for maaaany personal reasons

I RB more than I work, so yeah my IRL work sometimes gets affected however I never got caught :-)

I loose sleep on weekends just RBing

Ever since my PC downgraded, I cant play RO as much so I have limited knowledge of the game nowadays.

But the main reason perhaps that I also fail to admit to myself and everyone, is that I am losing motivation to manage RB. Being of what it has become. The rowdy people, disrespectful ( often idiotic players), but most of all the obvious rift between the mod team and me.

To make matters worse I think I left RB just in time. You see the rules in the boards? Thats about to change soon. I spoke to the manager handling RB about the " professionalism " issues we were having internally in the team.

When the manager told me that she doesnt care about the personal, team fighting issues as long as we do the job right, that statement hit a very sensitive chord. I told her that in LU and in Rb during my time, that wasnt how things run. Since you need team work to make everything run smoother and at least some level of reprimandation for those few mods who tend to lose their way ( that includes me).

The response she gave me was very disappointing. She told me since we mods are not being paid, its ok to do " whatever" we want in the boards as long as we do the job. Any personal issues, or fights, wala na sya don. Also she said " Iba yung dati, iba na yung ngayon: pertaining how LUG/RB was before to the now system. Frankly I dont like the Now system

The RB Mod team in the past few months has its shares of ups and downs. More downs than ups to be exact. We had a couple of rouge mods who basically said things that are NOT supposed to be said to players. We had internal issues in which a few mods would take leaves yet they still used the mod account to just chat ( The manager told me that NOW thats ok). I spoke to other former LU managers, they said that action is a bit irresponsible since a mod on leave should not use a property of LU for personal reasons, in case that mod makes a mistakes its LU who will get the negative hit.

We had mods who would NOT pass reports, and basically what just ticked me off in the end was the blatant disrespect and arrogance of some of them.

In my opinion, perhaps because we have a difference of what we think is morally correct is the one thing that divided us the most. Some of the mods have gained more preference from both LU and the public despite if what they do is right or wrong...basically, I got outnumbered and they have the public to back them up.

What I find wrong too is the amnesty they would give to their friends when they commit offenses or offensive remarks to other or to me. In some cases they too would chime in with the crudeness of the pack. And when you point it out the call you the one being " Unprofessional or childish"

Im not saying Im the perfect mod or GM either I have my mood swings. And lets face it, my grammar can even be beaten by a 3rd grader. Sometimes I often over reprimand a person in the forums, and my " Ate" attitude gets the best of me when reprimanding anyone younger than me.

Bottom line, I can make as much terrible mistakes as anyone. And no matter how much anger sometimes boils in my heart, in the end I really would rather would like to resolve things. That is the one thing many of the LU employees lack especially people in the mod team. Apologize doesnt seem to be an option

The last few days I had in RB were really sad. And in one instance some one used a very personal and uncalled for remark about my family member.

I'm tired of it, the politics, the corruption, all the red tape crap. And I am losing my pride to have once worked with Level Up after the way they have taken advantage of most of its employees, not just mods but good people in general . Everything I stand up for, defended and believed that RB was the one good place in Level Ups' bad rep, was shattered in an instant.

Worse is that I lost the people whom I thought were my friends.

Maybe Im being too emotional about all this. But only because, I always regarded my role in Level Up as one of the best Jobs I had in my life. The relationships I built were some of the strongest I still have. I cant say entirely for the mod team its the same. You cannot please people who do not want to be pleased.

I should have listened to my friend in LUG who told me, that I should play the politics game...too bad I never did. I don't entirely regret it, but at least maybe i could have made changes to prevent whats become of RB now...I dunno.

I do however feel that whatever contributions I did do for RB or LU were completely forgotten if not taken for granted. I sometimes even fear pointing them out due to the fact I dont want to be labeled as a person who thrives on attention or my "laurels"

Wouldnt matter anymore.

Ohhhh well Happy Bday then to me.

Leaving on a Jet Plane

Ive decided to resign as mod.

The plan came up after I had some sort of epiphany sometime in December. After my mom had passed away, I really really changed. Sad to say for the worst.

Being an only daughter and my step sibling so far away from me, I had a hard time coping with her death. Miserably. Then the pressure at my former work got to me. When my last company had financial problems, they had no choice but to lay people off. I was part of the list, regardless of my bosses objection. The dept needed me, but our budget could not afford me. Along with 30 more of our staff. I have to crunch the major financial troubles I knew I will be having

My mood soured a lot. Eventually my friend noticed how I would avoid meeting up with them. I lost motivation a lot. And being alone doesn’t really make it easy. even with the person i cared the most, I would pick fights with him, I could not help it nor neither wanted the me state I was in.

Im not trying to be emo. When I say alone. It means after my moms death I had to return to a house miles away from family, travel the world alone and try to go on with life. No friends to speak to, cook food by myself, LITERALLY LIVE ALONE. I hated the weekends sometimes, I had to stay indoors and do laundry and iron. My only other living companion, a cat.

No step brother ( where ever the hell he is) to support me, and all my friends were caught up with married life to even bother to comfort me. Ohh and there was that one old classmate I have who really, really gets TOOOO defensive in any criticism so basically were not in speaking terms until she Grows Up ( I pity your Husband sometimes too)

I did had one friend in the immediate area but she had BF problems like crazy and she picks fights as a hobby ( like I wanna beat up up type) so I try to stay away from her when she feels feisty. She also has a nasty tendency in trying to fight my battles unfortunately her tactics are often wrong. Involving cigarettes, anything that has to do with a cellphone, blog, email or sending herself or some one else in jail. NO THANK YOU I need not anymore drama

I tried to use my modding in RB as my sanctuary, but since my personality has changed a tune. I was close minded. Very, very hurt and always angry. You see, I blame myself for my mothers death.

But Murphys law was on my side. Everything was going wrong. Goenitz had to go away. Half our mods were on leave and I struggled to manage MP team and RB on my own from early February-April. In the end I asked LU to hire new mods. And on time, finally.

However my relationship with my own mod team soured. It’s a long story to state I'll post an update on this issue on another time

The only person who seemed to care was Goenitz.

Yeah G.

I finally decided to tell him. I have to resign. I cant do it anymore. If I stayed any longer in RB I’ll end up doing something I’ll regret. he's not to happy about it. But I told him he still has me.

RB already had its shares of horror stories about mods. I don’t need to add mine to the cauldron. I told G last. I told Rue ( aka Mod Megaman ) first. He said no.

I explained to him. I was time. Ive been with LU since 2003. My own older peers has moved on. Maybe I should to. Rue was very, very insistent that I should not leave. Though there were a few mods that In my heart would want me to leave, I wasn’t born yesterday…I had antennas for that type of unwelcome reception. Then there was that incident with Level Up IT, it’s a personal issue. They were just a messenger that told me something I need not know. My GM friend confirmed the news to me. That killed my week.

To add insult to injury, I got involved in a shoot out. Yes GUNS. It was definitely covered up by the media. That was traumatizing enough. My social skills hit a new low. I need healing I keep telling myself, else I’ll explode. Speaking of healing, my health has failed me too. My asthma has taken a bad turn on weekends. Plus there’s that other disease I have….yah the life threatening one. Again Im not being emo, Im just a magnet of bad luck.

It doesnt also help when you live in a world where everone becomes greedy selfish. Not the Greedy for money selfish. Just plain RUDE selfish " I dont Care if you die, BITCH because Im better than you" selfish. I wonder sometimes if their parents dropped them as a baby that they grew up that way?

The original talk I had with G was if I ever resign it was to state our marriage. But I had to leave the modship early. Sometime in July. Im waiting for K to help finish my final project in RB ( Dong Feng will have a field day with this one).

Don’t get me wrong. I love Ragnaboards. I Love my time in LUG. I would never have wanted to leave. Life just caught up, along with its spikes and sarcastic humor. I need a good break. Even when people said LU was this and that, I always, always look at the other cheek. I knew that CS were great people who try to work as hard as they could. I should know. I was once one of them. And that the LU managers are not as harsh as some claim them to be. Even the ones I don’t like. Same in mod team.

But the circumstances have now changed, Sad to say.

Ill be updating this topic as the weeks go by. Maybe my flight to the US will do me some good.

This Person

Grow up

Shape up

Stop acting childish

I GIVE UP!

These are the common rebuttals either you would throw to some one later down the line or either hear them directed at you.

Painful as it may seem, most of the times half of its meaning are true.

There’s a saying the dog that barks the loudest bites less.

Same supposedly goes for those who throw those types of comments.

that if they say

"You’re the immature one"

Its usually the other way around.

But there are sharp times that when you say that to someone, it really means that that some one is the one at the wrong. And its frustrating when they act like

" Ehh??" as if they didn’t know what the did wrong and sometimes they really are oblivious.

Cue in the Middle Man,the person who serves as the referee when the argument becomes too hot to handle. When friends fight, he/she will be that common friend that acts as a medium between the two. often known as the voice of reason. But in my case that I wasnt as lucky.

Rules of Engagement cites that the Middle Man MUST be neutral. To a certain point at least ( case to case basis)

Often he becomes the secret keeper. And if he needs to pass a particularly harsh message to the opposing party, the Middle Mans role would tone it down to avoid further complications if not withheld such information.

Then there’s that rule of "if it’s your mistake go figure it out yourself”.

Middle Men/women often use this line regularly when it comes to the point of the argument in which, they already KNEW of the source of the problems but rather have the ones involve go figure out themselves and not be the deciding factor of the resolve.

Reasons they use are:

1. Its not my fight to finish

2. Im just the middle man

3. Go figure it out yourself if you wanna improve

4. I dont really give a damn

and my most favorite

5. I just love seeing you go around in circles

Now here’s MY story

See I had a nasty, nasty misunderstanding with an acquaintance. I’ll call this person an a acquaintance because its rare now in my character to severe friendships as how "This Person" has pushed me to my limits.

Being younger "This Person" was than me, I heard from our Middle Man friend that "This Person" ooks up to me as some sort of mentor.

I'd be flattered by it by being there’s little in my short life worth appreciating...YET.

Being younger, "This Person" also has had a string of emotional outburst that mimics that of a 5 year old child. Often that needs coaxing in able to get "This Person" to warm up again to anyone. A VERY, VERY tiring process indeed.

Now me being older. I see things outside the box. I will admit I have my own mistakes. Lately being temperamental after the decline of my health and a very strong depression lapse after my mothers death. My mood swings which I often can hide so well would pop out every now and then often in an outburst of anger, clouding my judgments for the moment but non destructive YET to those around me.

When I once cited "This Persons" mistakes...or a mistake some one dear to "This Person" caused, you could imagine the barrage of insensitive phrases thrown at me.

I will admit perhaps somewhere along the line I may had said a touch a sensitive issue that affected "This Person" but automatically "This Person" set up their barrier so high that no logical reasoning and any form of compromise can break through.

It did not end there. After some sound advice from common acquaintances and friends they told me to leave the person be. However giving that me and "This Person" works into such close proximity it was hard to not notice when an antic or two comes up.

The latest was being part of a group effort in which "This Person" took a leave from. It was excusable for the moment. Giving the emotional distress, the drama the other little nitpicks of how sad life was and not being ready. We accepted that. But not everyone did.

As time passed "This Person" Became callous. More than often using the reason for its MIA status to excuse itself from certain responsibilities. While "That Person" on the other limelight of things, basked in the glory of other people's attention.

Not that its bad, but when your teammates are pulling strings to keep their project afloat, then that person becomes the insensitive one. And it was obvious to a few who rather keep mum on the situation.

The showdown commenced later on after "This Person" basically did not care anymore about the project. Threw tantrums after some administrative order was to be settled on a case of that did not involve "This Person" but another common acquaintance.

When asked for support "This Person" would simply say NO, or "I’m busy" or the overrated " Im not ready” excuse.

The line was finaly drawn when "This Person" DEMANDED I reveal a personal secret I have with G-man.

It was a very sensitive and personal secret given the status of friendship me a G have, spanning since 2003. That man (G that is) knows most of my darkest secrets and if there was anyone who could persuade me it would be him. But "This Person" after a polite decline (obviously) gave me the most shocking reaction

" Youve always put me down! You never saw me as a friend or as a person." And stomped off.

It happened so fast I couldn’t barely react.

How can I be mean after I refused to tell this person a secret I have with a friend that does not whatsoever concerns "This Person".

I tried to stay silent with the whole issue. Until hell came falling down on me on a Saturday weekend.

After a traumatic incident involving a encounter with a gang fight ( possible ballistics involved) and obviously in my opinion some media cover-up ( I wont disclose the location for this) I was left shaken up and was seriously considering some time off and counseling.

I opened up my email and low and behold, InRO merged with Ragnaboards. The forums cracked up to 2000 Online subscribers with very little mods to assist me.

There were other IRL issues need not mention too.

So when asked "This Person"to help out since now WE ALL GOT BIGGER problems, "This Person" has now evolved into a selfish child who was spoiled by the sunlight of attention, coaxing and having his/her way done in the months that I and maybe some other people put up with.

Just to make "This Person" happy.

The Pandora’s box was now open. I tried to nicely again explain my side, plus some add complaints Ive receive from others. That person does not care.

" Im simply not motivated" was the usual cold and nonchalant response. Giving the pity me puppy eyes. In my imagination a smug grin as "This Person" do as they pleased.

Then comes in Middle Man. After a long 4 hour conversation with him. I told him I was at my brink.

He later then told me in a LONG RIDDLE type explanation that he already knew the reason why "This Person" acts the way it does.

WHAT??!!. I begged Middle Man, a supposedly close friend of mine to tell me. I wrecked my brains trying to figure out, what was it soo cruel that i did that "This Person" became the person it became now.

Middle Man declined any support

" Figure it out yourself" he says.

Then after some coaxing he game me some Marshmallow tests. I was pissed, and tired. It was 2 am in the morning. And he opted to do more mind games and puzzles.

He had the answer. We could end the issue that evening. It was terribly frustrating that I was so close to ending this yet someone decides to play GOD infront of me

But I assume Middle man has subconsciously chosen his side. Not that Im asking his. However, after him playing with my emotions long enough.

Withholding from me pertinent information that involved me. And The Lies that "This Person" also has been apparently been spreading making me look like the fool. The big bad fox.

In the end he. Mr. Middle man, stood his ground. He knew I was really exhausted about the issue. It’s affecting us as a team. But in the end he would rather see me see me complicate, stumble and make more mistakes when he could have at least assisted in helping me end the long wary fight.

Basically from how he seems to say, he wants me to bend to "That Person’s" will. Be submissive even to "That Person’s" mistakes. He admits "That Person" has mistakes but just let it go, he suggested and yeah " go figure out what you did"

NO. I wont turn my back on the issue yet. Not this way at least.

You see. Right now……

I am VERY VERY UPSET

It wouldn’t be fair anymore. Not for me who once genuinely cared for "That Person" only to be used the way I was used. If I had my mistakes I would apologize to them but don’t create a scenario of lies and make yourself like some vulnerable child to grant sympathy. You will lose more friends that way.

Backstabbers are sisters of Traitors in my eyes.

For now I’m letting my temper reside as I write this.

But there’s a line so gravely drawn already, I pity the situation. I pity you...I know you wont read this. But may the fates help once you reap what you sow.

Security Breach and 2 months after on a Valentines day

Security Breach and 2 months after on a Valentines day

The past few months has been really truely tough on me and the family

My dad feel into bouts of depression after my mom's death and Im back here in my Pad.

My own trauma of her passing didn't kicked in until a few weeks after.

After mom passed away I didn't realized that my body was exhausting myself with work. Taking up more hours on my Ragnaboarding, doing more than usual household chores. Doing overtime like crazy.

I also have taken become re-addicted to playing the Playstation 2 game. Kingdom hearts 2 which up to this day I have not completed yet tales up most of my time when I have free spare hours.

Then I just fall asleep and wake up and do the same ritual the next day.

Till one cold night, I just broke down and cried realizing that how I terribly missed her. The first few weeks after my moms death also riddled me with the flu and my usual asthma attacks due to sleep deprivation from December and early January.

To make matters worse I got a call from home that told me dad had lumps in his throat.

Our family has a strong line of Cancer, so you can imagine the sickness in my gut when I heard the news.

Fortunately it wasnt malignant and can be taken out through an out patient operation.

On other issues with the curse of valentines day coming I had started getting call at night from various friends about their love woes.

Mike was one of the firsts, calling me at 1am in the morning after fears his GF who had a nasty history of breaking up with her BF's all of a sudden were showing signs of the same behavior she has before ending a relationship.

Next up I found out that a GF for a close friend of mine has been playing my friend. To add additional annoyance my friend even after presented with the evidences would easily be persuaded by his girl after some sweet-talk. But later then would succumb to a state of uneasiness after he feels that the girl is up to her old tricks.

As for me Valentines is again, cursed for my own good. But this year Im a love doctor of sorts for many.

Id be baking cupcakes at most to my friends and officemates.

Then as for the Breach of Security.

As for some know in my community the Ragnaboards, a fellow Midgard Police has recently resigned.

However he did this untimely after a slight misunderstanding we had over YM

You see Goenitz just introduced him to me briefly. After a week or two of conversation, he one night Pmed me with some outburst of confidence. he was actually slightly tipsy from a drinking bout with friends.

I passed the silly conversation he had with me as nothing since in my thoughts he was drunk.

But after a few days he kept pestering me on giving him my personal information such as a picture, my name, where i work and Im from as a token of trust...this is barely 2 weeks of me and him speaking

That’s when I drew the line and forgive me to those who may have find my next few words, too highly of me.

I said " I think as your superior I have every right to withdraw that info from you."

In which to his respond he does not see his job as an MP as work but only merely as play. Naturally, that raised eyebrows for me. I did HR work for some time and Ive seen Call center people and even sales or young executives fired for comments such as those.

Nonetheless after I explained to him that we must conduct a bout of professionalism in our MP-MOD relationship despite the casualness of our conversation, he still hinted that "His sources" can figure where I live, who I am, My pic, my dirt, etc... and his tone of saying was more of bragging than friendly

This was too after the fact that Riean aka Silverstien had been harassing my work YM and email with threats.

Yesterday I got the link of the said MP's resignation, and also the most annoying conversation i had with him in which he sarcastically calls me “mam” as pun to the " See me as your superior topic" we had a few days.

On a few hours he was posting links to my personal website telling me he was doing this for fun.

With the breach of security we have been having lately in our MP team and in the current status of our mod hiring, it has been more than once that I stated to the MP team leader Goenitz to take SERIOUS pre-caution of who they hire. Same goes for me since Im helping out with the moderator hiring and hope we choose the best ones fitted with the highest integrity.

Other Than That

Happy Valentines Day

The Goenitz Expose!

FINALLY THE LEOPOLD GOENITZ EXPOSE.

Weeeee!

Yey.

And yes here is his most awaited picture

What to say? What to say. Or rather, where to start.

The expose idea came about when during the time of my Mothers confinement at Makati Medical Hospital, Goenitz along with the rest of the mod team. But second to Rue he kept a very close tab on me.

Close tab meaning he calls me nearly every night or asking me to call him even at 3 am in the morning to make sure I was ok. It was then, at the very highlight of my mom’s sort of awakening from mid-coma, where I realized that Goenitz ain’t as godly as he seems to be in the Ragnaboard and the Bot Hunters world.

But let’s go back in time, nearly 5 years ago. Yes 5 years ago. Even before I was a Game Master, as a few knew I was a beta player for then CHAOS server under the surveillance of GM Preator. I was like the first batch of primitive version of the Midgard Police.

He gave me then access to the old killprobots the YM that was being handled by a very, very much younger ( and way thinner) Goenitz. Though then the Bot issue wasn’t as big as today, the scamming reports were. Killprobots was a hotline to live scamming and hack on site situations. He at first spoke very rarely to me in YM but he then opened up to me more. Opened up meaning he spoke more than 5 words in a sentence to me.

Half a year later I was working in Level Up, around a month in my employment, I ever wondered whatever happened to my dear old friend who I have never seen before yet interacted with so much when catching scammers. Little did I know he was the puny lil guy sitting behind me. Preator pointed him out to me and I immediately hugged him in which Goenitz responded with a glare. To think we’d come a long way 5 years later. Him being one of my closest pals and secret keeper.

And he’s not as puny as he was 5 years ago…so to speak.

Now back to the hospital incident. You see I stated to my previous blog that Senator Rene Saguisag was our ICU neighbor hence the crowd of reporters and bodyguards galore that flood the 2^nd floor of the Makati Med.

The day Goenitz visited me he saw me at my absolute worse. He was 3 hours late. And the visitors area was crowded already with my fathers clan. My mom at that time showed first signs of recognizing us. Hence me in haggard tears, running out of the ICU room to tell everyone when I noticed in the corner of my eye my Ragnaboards boss, staring at me. With me drippy nose and tears, yeah that’s a great way to see your boss again.

After everything calmed down I said “ GOENITZ! You’re Late!” In which he cover my mouth and said. “ SHHHHHH…don’t call me by my RB name call my by my real name which is TOOOOOOT “

Later on Rue and I were watching Goenitz walking around, talking about the whole third party program issue. I guess I was just enjoying the while scene because this is what I saw.

Goenitz, giving us a good spill on the Midgard Police and Level Up issues. Wearing a BIG BLUE Level Up Tshirt. With the word VALKYRIE on front. While waiting in front of the whole MEDIA who at the time was recording LIVE ( because of Rene Saguisag).

And to top this off, he told me he had the new Bot hunting strategy and mechanics with him that he wanted to show me through my laptop. Asking him where it was. There dangling around his neck on a wee thin piece of string was the USB flash drive that holds the key to the Valkyrie server secrets.

And he was prancing around In FRONT of the media with it.

I couldn’t contain myself and just had to point it out. “ Uhhh Goenitz, you do know that you’re spilling Level Up secrets live on TV?” My finger pointing at the camera men behind him clicking away like paparazzi in which he retaliated with a war cry of HORROR. So much for his fool proof plan of hiding and securing his identity…and company secrets.

Now before I continue with the rest of the Expose. Here’s a part of an exclusive Interview I had with the G man.

Nirvelli-chan-chan Asks: ok Bot related stuff: Whats the worse thing that can happen

while you are bot hunting?

Goenitz: BROWNOUT or BSOD

Nirvelli-chan-chan Asks: Ha anong BSOD?

Goenitz: Blue Screen of Death. Remember windows 98 era

Nirvelli-chan-chan Asks: You get a LOT of suggestions in-game and RB on how to catch bots. Are any of them effective? If yes what was the BEST suggestion you ever got from a player/anti botter that sends you their ideas.

Goenitz: Many of them were already applied, but some like monster summoning actually worked

Nirvelli-chan-chan Says: People who submit like bot catching strategies to you and get no reply feel they are being ignored. What is your say to your supporters in your fight against the bots on WHY You cant respond back to their mail?

Goenitz: Well, if I don't respond, I'm up to something or something

is bugging me. But don't take non-responsiveness as ignorance. I'm in

charge of getting new MPs, and pulling RB together, and add my personal matters, it's no easy task

Nirvelli-chan-chan Asks: But you do read the letters they send you? After all that is what they wanna know

Goenitz: Yep, if it's reports, I read and file them too.

Goenitz: Lame mails like asking their bots to be freed in the spirit

of Christmas... will be ignored.

Nirvelli-chan-chan Asks: HAHAHAHA good one.

Nirvelli-chan-chan Asks: Ok we know now that Level Up has hired some new MP's

Nirvelli-chan-chan Asks: What would be your advise to them when coming to the reality of Bot catching?

Goenitz: My advice: Get some really thick skin, motivation and trust and trustworthiness.

Nirvelli-chan-chan Adds: How about professionalism? What’s your best tip when it comes to professionalism?

Goenitz: Use professionalism as much as possible. Even when other people don't show it. When it comes to whooping butt... that will come

naturally in you.

Nirvelli-chan-chan adds: Ok give an example.

Goenitz: Professionalism for MPs: Talking to people in respectable manner, accomplishing commitments, punctuality, and responsibility.

When it comes to Whooping butt: sowing fear to those who deserve it, inflicting the maximum pain possible to those who deserve it, and making your MP so scary you yourself is afraid of your own alter ego.

Nirvelli-chan-chan: How do you see yourself in the future?

Goenitz: Leading these people, but now as part of the company. Successful, positively popular, accomplished and organized.

Nirvelli-chan-chan Assumes: Ah so you do plan to be part of the Level Up Team ( office wise)? what department are you aiming for

Goenitz chuckles: What else, but Game Operations community? I may cause people to flee though.

Nirvelli-chan-chan: What is the most number 1 thing people misunderstood you for?

Goenitz thought for a moment…. Then replies: That would be being arrogant. Being all-talk-but-no-substance. Then there’s the Narcissist issue.

Nirvelli-chan-chan says: Then who is the REAL Goenitz ( give me something to shed light that you are Human)

Goenitz: The real Goenitz wouldn't be talking to sinful humans, but
rather dispose of them. To those who show charity, he'll be more than glad to help them out.

Nirvelli-chan-chan adds: And outside RB/Bot hunting, what do you do which could be considered as normal as the rest of us?

Goenitz: Watching the scenery and appreciating a picturesque view of the city. Fawning over positive advances of human society, listening to woes of just people, and making solutions for the problems encountered.

Now here comes another section of this expose that ever since Master Diwa Interviewed Kaliwanagan of Openkore, Goenitz had very limited responses online in regards to Kaliwanagan’s message in regards why he ( Kali) supports the Openkore side. Kali’s supposed message was that he did this to “wake” Level Up from the game and point out the exploit of the game.

Nirvelli-chan-chan asks: And the question everyone wants to hear since Master Diwa's

Interview with Kaliwanagan. Any message you want to tell him? ( Hands over the megaphone)

Goenitz: Stop developing bots for society's sake.

Nirvelli-chan-chan Adds: CORRECTION: Kaliwanagan says that he does not make/or created the botkore but helps out only with the programming and users who need quick FAQ's on how to use it. He says he does this so that LUG will WAKE up and step up with their Anti Bot strategies.

Infact Kaliwanagan is WILLING to help out with LUG if given the chance. What’s your say on that?

Goenitz Responds: Giving operational help to botters is not a sincere gesture. If he's willing to help, he should not aid these people whatsoever. I will welcome help from him, but he has to prove his sincerity first, because, let's face it, I consider him an enemy. An enemy that is willing to help to achieve an enemy's goal is suspicious, isn't it?

Now here’s a part of Goenitz out of random candidness I asked which got me in stitches when our topic went to politics

Nirvelli-chan-chan Asks: What do you think about the way Gloria Arroyo is running the country and are you in favor of the National Curfew law ( Subversion Law)?

Goenitz: Gloria: If her measures, however unpopular, makes the country better, no beef.

National Curfew Law, my take: Give proper exceptions and you have a deal. ( This is coming from the guy who was frantic when he got caught in the middle of the Curfew caused by the Trillianes-Penninsula event)

My mother’s wake fell upon the same time the Trillianes event happened. When the National Curfew hit, Goenitz was again late on coming to see me at the funeral home. Milkshake came first we ended up walking the Hallway Flower of Death just to go and watch the news in regards to the traffic the standoff created. By the time he arrived he could only stay for 20 mins because the National Curfew was announced. Traffic was already bad and the next best option he him sleeping over at Rues house or with us at the Funeral home. You could imagine, Goenitz wolfing down on the pansit I gave him and cussing later on how annoying the Curfew/traffic was.

Nirvelli-chan: You have been getting death threats ( obviously) but we mods know you have some famous stalkers...some we may even think is obsessed with you, what’s your call on that?

Goenitz: On stalkers; those who do not have good intentions, watch out.

Nirvelli-chan-chan : Do you think you’re clumsy?

Goenitz proudly says: Clumsy? Why should I be clumsy? I've never been clumsy on purpose. ( at this point memories of Goenitz being clumsy in a 3day period flashed though my mind)

OK CUT!!! Now back to my expose. Goenitz doesn’t think he is clumsy….RIGHHHT

Why I can disprove that?

1. Goenitz Hit HIMSELF with a LAMP after he hit it with a restaurant menue. Oh yeah he hit himself back with the menu too
2. He kept dropping the Valkyrie USB flash drive ( The Horror)
3. He blew up a 300 Watt Capacitor for a PC by installing it with a 500Watt power….( Ohh dear lord)
4. He dropped his cellphone to beyond recognition.
5. He dropped pancit on his shirt
6. He was raving about Bots infront of the media.
7. For some reason whereever he goes a PC gets broken... hmmmm
   

Ok back to the interview

Nirvelli-chan-chan: Ok its gonna be Christmas soon, what do you want for Christmas

Goenitz: DEATH TO ALL BOTTERS!.....wait not that. BETTER COMPUTER HARDWARE! (Just in time after this interview his PC capcitator blew up)

Nirvelli-chan-chan: Ok if you will give pRO a gift for this Christmas given you have the finances and authority what would it be?

Goenitz says: Zero backlog for bot reports and instant report action.

Nirvelli-chan Asks: If you have a weakness that you would be willing to reveal, what would it be?

Goenitz: I don't reveal my weakness to potential enemies that will certainly take advantage of it.

Nirvelli-chan: A reliable source told me that Goenitz does have a weakness, besides that I have discovered…This very reliable source says that Goenitz has a weakness for a GOLDEN UNDERWEAR

Now lets go to what may be his fears.

Rue and I had different ideas what the great G-man would be afraid of. Like me Goenitz is anti Jologs, but that’s not a fear.

After my mother passed away, when he and the rest of the Mod team came to visit me. I noticed how very planted his feet were to the floor when I tried pushing him to my moms coffin.

By the way, I have an Eternal fear of the dead…and coffins so my mothers passing was really hard on me in regards to overcoming that phobia. Delicious Cake I think was the one who teased that Goenitz is afraid of dead bodies like me.

He did however, went to see my mom on his own…with a very relative distance from the coffin.

As classic as Showbiz like interviews would be, there are many in the Ragnaboard ( and even some of us in the Moderating team) wonder. If Goenitz would have a special some one, that person must be hell of a saint. So after trying to squeeze out stuff for the G-man ( by feeding him loads of drugged pancit) I went on asking him one of the top mysteries that people would want to know

Does Goenitz have a Lovelife?

Nirvelli-chan asks: What do you find in a life partner?

Goenitz: Dependability, loyalty, and wisdom

Nirvelli-chan says: Dont we all, now be a lil bit more specific *wrangles his neck*

Goenitz: the sweet caring type that dispells even the strongest of hatreds

But wait a minute, there was an issue before about Goenitz’s true gender which earned him the moniker Gay-nitz to his haters. So here I am trying to straighten the issue straight from the uhhh…horses mouth? The response shocked me…

Nirvelli-chan: Hey lets just get this long issue about your being gay IRL. What are your thoughts that you are neither man nor woman, or even possibly gay?

Goenitz shocker reply: Anything that will help in my mission will be fine. Even if it will psychologically scar them

Nirvelli-chan ( Jaw Drops): Ahhh so you admit that you may be POSSIBLY GAY???

Goenitz: well, roleplayers sometimes must pretend being a girl now, must they?

Nirvelli-chan (Grabs frying pan and whacks him with it): Answer me ng matino damn you! Are you Gay or not!!!!!???

Goenitz: ( is running around) I'm not gay! Im STRAIGHT!!

Nirvelli-chan: Ok then define LOVE!

Goenitz: Ahh LOve, like Kain R. Heinlien would say, feelings and emotions can interfere with my job, though I disagree with him that emotions are a sign of weakness.

Nirvelli-chan: Ok since you said you are not gay. Do you have a GF? If not are you available, what is it you look for in a lolita ( cough) girl?

Goenitz: I have no interest for love and the stuff I do is enough to keep me busy, in fact so busy I'm wondering if I should be a full-time MP.

Nirvelli-chan: If you resign from RB I'll skin you alive...

I still wasn’t still convinced that the public would be convinced that they will buy his response so I decided to test him myself by asking him some Babesilog questions.

Nirvelli-chan-chan: Choose the best Answer. Eat Bulaga girls or Wowowee Girls ?

Goenitz: Eat bulaga girls?

Nirvelli-chan-chan: yeah yung mga dancer sa Eat bulaga

Goenitz: them

Nirvelli-chan-chan: na pumalit sa sexbomb

Goenitz: they're okay

Goenitz: WoWowee girls are so OA

Nirvelli-chan-chan: Ohhhhkay ( I watch ABC-CBN more) Lemme change that. Angel Locsin or Angelica Pnagniban?

Goenitz: Angelica

Goenitz: She’s the marimar star, right?

Nirvelli-chan-chan: ...............

Nirvelli-chan-chan: Ok lets change that Angel Locsin or Marian Rivera ( the

Marimar Star)

Goenitz: ....

Goenitz: As you can see, hindi ako familiar sa showbiz ( Obvious ba)

I guess he’s man enough for me. Unfortunately, like most straight guys…clueless.

However even us female mods get a little bit deviceful when it comes to the idea of Goenitz being possibly gay….or any mod/GM for that matter. What happens when you leave 2 female mods alone with a glass separating each other? One Mod has a Nitendo DS and me on the other hand holding a notebook and pen?

Well in mine’s and Chocolate Milkshakes case, we communicated by writing on both the notebook and the Nitendo DS then showing it through the glass window. We were bored not to mention totally mental to the passerbys watching us pass time.

The boy Mods and GM went out to get some food. Some how one thing led to another ( with Milkshake telling me the rocking chair behind me was moving on its own) and we end up drawing all the male mods and male GM’s in a yaoi (gayyyyy) pose. We later on presented it to Goenitz with him in a famous ZhaZha Zhaturna pose.

Also I should have taken heed of the warning the whole moderator team gave me about not standing between Goenitz and his pizza.

Pizza= 1 Large Yellow Cab Pizza. And 2 minutes record time. GONE!

Anyway back to the interview

Nirvelli-chan: What will be one of your memorable moments with the mods.

Goenitz: This was a long time ago with the old mod team. Pestering a moderator couple who just recently got hooked.

By

1. catcalls

2. Clinking glasses and bottles when eating out during

Meetings

Now since you heard me blab so much about Goenitz;

Lets hear what our Mods say about him.

Moderator Cassandra: He’s just weird

Chocolate Milkshake: Hard on the outside, soft on the inside. Pretty boy Goenitz, the hardcore modcore. XD

Rue Aerith: Hmmmm the only thing that can whip Goenitz is Chuck Norris and bullhide.

Anyway, there was this time sa siege. Nagtataka siya kung bakit hindi siya makagamit ng double strafe.
Malamang kutsilyo gamit niya e.

Delicious Cake: A hardcore motherfucker who plays by his own rules in his effort to get rid of bots. A bit messed up in the head, but a great leader. Keep anything sacred away from him

Lastly to wrap up this expose. People think that Goenitz is only big in the Forums because he can hide behind some admin account. Some even claim and curse that he’s just a nobody in real life

My own take: he gets a tad bit sablay when it comes to being a sympathetic friend like, asking you to do a last min shopping online 7 hours before your flight and expecting it to be delivered within that time frame. He also gets demanding when it comes to anything abut Egames and botting secrets. He’s always hungry. But other than that he hits you in the right spot when it comes to sheering a person up and protecting them too.

Lastly, to wrap up this expose. People think that Goenitz is only big in the Forums because he can hide behind some admin account. Some even claim and curse that he’s just a nobody in real life

The ending question would be. What for him is his greatest accomplishment in real life that did not involve Ragnarok Online. In his case he has 2.

The first being is that he tops all his computer related subjects and the second. Saving a house from fire.

Goenitz: Yes, nakasave ako ng house when their gas stove went out of control using a fire extinguisher. GO Fire Extinguishers!

Ohh yeah there was his text to me one time that baffled us all mods " IM CUMMING" when asked if he was going to be late.

G Quick Facts

Allergic food: none;

Least liked food: mushrooms

Hated Food: Upo with Hibi ( dried shrimp)

Favorite Movie: Independence Day

Hated sports: none

Other games besides RO: fighting games, arcade games

Favorite dessert: gellatin

Favorite Food: Kare Kare

A note that this will be re-edited on Tuesday for more inputs