Hiatus from Ragnaboards

Due a Personal Tradegy. Mod Nirvelli will be on Hiatus from Ragnaboards
For those who sent their well wishes and prayers. Thank you

Further updates will be given by next week

Time to take the Paparatzi’s off your List

Time to take the Paparatzi’s off your List

I learned again the hard way these past few days. About the whole choosing friends thing. I guess because I’m naturally friendly to most people, I trust people easily. Too easily for my good.

2x already people I met online has quoted me or rather misquoted me in things I say. The worse of course will be those things they can quote off the record or rather in simple chats or outside the word talks

I feel sad, in the sense some of these people are very popular, in some sense well respective people in the Philippine Online community.

Then I realized, that sometimes as humans err, they do things that are acts of selfishness. Makes you question

When you considered them as friends, do they consider you one as well?

On the time with the whole Hubalah of the URDR fights, I still keep weekly contacts via YM to some of the URDR and Freya people. May it be chats but most of the time them asking me random questions about Ragnarok Online stuff

The funny things is some of them I don’t even get along with. There was a former in RB, though I am still cautious, well make them 2, that I have butted heads with in the past. They are now Pming me every now and then, saying hi and in one case I had to help out on a non-RO problem. ( He needed to call some one like really long distance, I had free International Load so I lent him some of my free minutes, it was a emergency issue)

Its weird that those you have issues with in the past keep a certain level of respect to one another. And y greatest pride I would say, are for those who had a change of heart, old flamers now studious college students or workers. And there are those temperamental ones, who checks in their rage so that they would not react so rashly the next time.

But there are those that will use what ever information you may have for personal gain. A flaw I have. I talk too much. Really too much. I assumed that our friendship would protect any privacy I can confide in them. But rather feel used as later on seeing some of what I said, used on a negative purpose or personal purpose.

My bestfriend told me “ Just keep you mouth shut”

While good ol Goenitz say “ Time to take the Paparatzi’s off your List.”

I’ll have to admit, its going to be hard, the fact that on my own personal basis I keep most as good friends. But seeing that most don’t see me as one. ( SORRY FOR ME NOT BEING FRIENDSHIP MATERIAL)

I know my Christian friend will tell me to love my brothers and enemies as equal. No I don’t see them as enemies, though I just feel hurt and like that they would care.

This just doesn’t go with my job as a mod. IRL too I have friends I confide to that sad to say some actually rejoice on my bad/ sad experiences even go as far to gloat why they are happier than me or how sad my life is ( and yet I still am friends with them)

However I do count my blessings. I have Goenitz, I have PMT, My mod team despite our differences. My Best friend Dobs, Rene, Lum, KQ, Kamesh and others more that I can fully trust my secrets and they accept me for who I am and correct me in my bad ways with out discrimination. With no desire of personal gain, with an open heart and warm smiles

Now isn’t that true friendship :-)

New Sight and Halloween Hiatus

Sight and Halloween Hiatus

The few days before LU Live was quite a hype. There were a few of those in my other job as a Ragnaboards Moderator that know my YM to contact me in case of emergency.

In this case it was people asking me the final details for LU Live. Or how to get there.

I laughed ( at myself really) I felt that I was the worst person they could ask.

I am very dependent on a carpool or a driver, and in some cases Taxi.

However with the LU Live free bus and some moral support from the forums I was able to pass some good info.

On a bad note my immune system crashed last week. My cold had gone up to a fever and my headaches and near fainting spells were increasing.

So come Friday I decided to leave my Mod duties for some needed R & R. Or so I thought.

Friday Night I came home at 11:30 Pm after a good male friend of mine asked me out ( not exactly a date) to shower me with his love woes, he and his beau had some sort of cool off. Him being a Phil-am having a relationship with a pure grown Pinay, he is not used to the meaning of MU or rather “ parang kayo na hindi” . Asking me through my past or relative experiences why she wanted a time off for a week.

Saturday I went to the doctor. Eye doctor to be exact. My sight was getting worse and I know my current glasses weren’t working for me anymore. At least I wanted a prescription for my eyes.

As expected my eyesight had gotten worse. Worse in the sense that it jumped from a 200 grade to 450. And my glasses were 150-200 grade.

No wonder I was getting faint spells lately. They fitted me for contacts. My eyes were tob be dilated.

I said NO WAY. Last time my doctor did that my eyes were like saucers, It felt like I had glass for eyes and my doc kept poking this light stick at my eye.

So instead they tested it by PUFFING my eyes with air.

This was no regular air blowing. They told me to look at the green light in this lil tunnel. The tunnel was some sort of blowdart that shoot arrow sharp PUFFS of air straight to your eye.

Two puffs each.

And its not very me to do this but when I had the first puff I went

What the $!@@@!!

My new lens wont be ready for a while so the first time since my 17^th year I wore contacts. The newes tversion of Hydroclear. It was easier this time to put on. I have very dry eyes, not to mention I am sensitive to a lot of eye medication, to my surprise it was easy to use.

However my usual habit ( after 10 years of wearing glasses) of pushing my glasses up my nose was hard to break, I still feel the imaginary weight of my rims on the bridge of my nose.

Then the fever really hasn’t gone away. Terri and I a friend of mine haven’t seen each other over the week invited me to a little girl time, malling. Then later on lassoed me in helping out with Sunday school at church. I was a former gradeschool teacher, so she needed some extra hands for the after service of watching the lil-rascals till their parents came to pick them up.

However, Monday came too fast. I missed the whole LU Live ( I wouldn’t survive though through the madness with my bad eyesight) and was still to this day tending a head cold (nalamigan ang ulo).

But its back to work work work….. I seriously need a REAL R & R.