The Goenitz Expose!

FINALLY THE LEOPOLD GOENITZ EXPOSE.

Weeeee!

Yey.

And yes here is his most awaited picture

What to say? What to say. Or rather, where to start.

The expose idea came about when during the time of my Mothers confinement at Makati Medical Hospital, Goenitz along with the rest of the mod team. But second to Rue he kept a very close tab on me.

Close tab meaning he calls me nearly every night or asking me to call him even at 3 am in the morning to make sure I was ok. It was then, at the very highlight of my mom’s sort of awakening from mid-coma, where I realized that Goenitz ain’t as godly as he seems to be in the Ragnaboard and the Bot Hunters world.

But let’s go back in time, nearly 5 years ago. Yes 5 years ago. Even before I was a Game Master, as a few knew I was a beta player for then CHAOS server under the surveillance of GM Preator. I was like the first batch of primitive version of the Midgard Police.

He gave me then access to the old killprobots the YM that was being handled by a very, very much younger ( and way thinner) Goenitz. Though then the Bot issue wasn’t as big as today, the scamming reports were. Killprobots was a hotline to live scamming and hack on site situations. He at first spoke very rarely to me in YM but he then opened up to me more. Opened up meaning he spoke more than 5 words in a sentence to me.

Half a year later I was working in Level Up, around a month in my employment, I ever wondered whatever happened to my dear old friend who I have never seen before yet interacted with so much when catching scammers. Little did I know he was the puny lil guy sitting behind me. Preator pointed him out to me and I immediately hugged him in which Goenitz responded with a glare. To think we’d come a long way 5 years later. Him being one of my closest pals and secret keeper.

And he’s not as puny as he was 5 years ago…so to speak.

Now back to the hospital incident. You see I stated to my previous blog that Senator Rene Saguisag was our ICU neighbor hence the crowd of reporters and bodyguards galore that flood the 2^nd floor of the Makati Med.

The day Goenitz visited me he saw me at my absolute worse. He was 3 hours late. And the visitors area was crowded already with my fathers clan. My mom at that time showed first signs of recognizing us. Hence me in haggard tears, running out of the ICU room to tell everyone when I noticed in the corner of my eye my Ragnaboards boss, staring at me. With me drippy nose and tears, yeah that’s a great way to see your boss again.

After everything calmed down I said “ GOENITZ! You’re Late!” In which he cover my mouth and said. “ SHHHHHH…don’t call me by my RB name call my by my real name which is TOOOOOOT “

Later on Rue and I were watching Goenitz walking around, talking about the whole third party program issue. I guess I was just enjoying the while scene because this is what I saw.

Goenitz, giving us a good spill on the Midgard Police and Level Up issues. Wearing a BIG BLUE Level Up Tshirt. With the word VALKYRIE on front. While waiting in front of the whole MEDIA who at the time was recording LIVE ( because of Rene Saguisag).

And to top this off, he told me he had the new Bot hunting strategy and mechanics with him that he wanted to show me through my laptop. Asking him where it was. There dangling around his neck on a wee thin piece of string was the USB flash drive that holds the key to the Valkyrie server secrets.

And he was prancing around In FRONT of the media with it.

I couldn’t contain myself and just had to point it out. “ Uhhh Goenitz, you do know that you’re spilling Level Up secrets live on TV?” My finger pointing at the camera men behind him clicking away like paparazzi in which he retaliated with a war cry of HORROR. So much for his fool proof plan of hiding and securing his identity…and company secrets.

Now before I continue with the rest of the Expose. Here’s a part of an exclusive Interview I had with the G man.

Nirvelli-chan-chan Asks: ok Bot related stuff: Whats the worse thing that can happen

while you are bot hunting?

Goenitz: BROWNOUT or BSOD

Nirvelli-chan-chan Asks: Ha anong BSOD?

Goenitz: Blue Screen of Death. Remember windows 98 era

Nirvelli-chan-chan Asks: You get a LOT of suggestions in-game and RB on how to catch bots. Are any of them effective? If yes what was the BEST suggestion you ever got from a player/anti botter that sends you their ideas.

Goenitz: Many of them were already applied, but some like monster summoning actually worked

Nirvelli-chan-chan Says: People who submit like bot catching strategies to you and get no reply feel they are being ignored. What is your say to your supporters in your fight against the bots on WHY You cant respond back to their mail?

Goenitz: Well, if I don't respond, I'm up to something or something

is bugging me. But don't take non-responsiveness as ignorance. I'm in

charge of getting new MPs, and pulling RB together, and add my personal matters, it's no easy task

Nirvelli-chan-chan Asks: But you do read the letters they send you? After all that is what they wanna know

Goenitz: Yep, if it's reports, I read and file them too.

Goenitz: Lame mails like asking their bots to be freed in the spirit

of Christmas... will be ignored.

Nirvelli-chan-chan Asks: HAHAHAHA good one.

Nirvelli-chan-chan Asks: Ok we know now that Level Up has hired some new MP's

Nirvelli-chan-chan Asks: What would be your advise to them when coming to the reality of Bot catching?

Goenitz: My advice: Get some really thick skin, motivation and trust and trustworthiness.

Nirvelli-chan-chan Adds: How about professionalism? What’s your best tip when it comes to professionalism?

Goenitz: Use professionalism as much as possible. Even when other people don't show it. When it comes to whooping butt... that will come

naturally in you.

Nirvelli-chan-chan adds: Ok give an example.

Goenitz: Professionalism for MPs: Talking to people in respectable manner, accomplishing commitments, punctuality, and responsibility.

When it comes to Whooping butt: sowing fear to those who deserve it, inflicting the maximum pain possible to those who deserve it, and making your MP so scary you yourself is afraid of your own alter ego.

Nirvelli-chan-chan: How do you see yourself in the future?

Goenitz: Leading these people, but now as part of the company. Successful, positively popular, accomplished and organized.

Nirvelli-chan-chan Assumes: Ah so you do plan to be part of the Level Up Team ( office wise)? what department are you aiming for

Goenitz chuckles: What else, but Game Operations community? I may cause people to flee though.

Nirvelli-chan-chan: What is the most number 1 thing people misunderstood you for?

Goenitz thought for a moment…. Then replies: That would be being arrogant. Being all-talk-but-no-substance. Then there’s the Narcissist issue.

Nirvelli-chan-chan says: Then who is the REAL Goenitz ( give me something to shed light that you are Human)

Goenitz: The real Goenitz wouldn't be talking to sinful humans, but
rather dispose of them. To those who show charity, he'll be more than glad to help them out.

Nirvelli-chan-chan adds: And outside RB/Bot hunting, what do you do which could be considered as normal as the rest of us?

Goenitz: Watching the scenery and appreciating a picturesque view of the city. Fawning over positive advances of human society, listening to woes of just people, and making solutions for the problems encountered.

Now here comes another section of this expose that ever since Master Diwa Interviewed Kaliwanagan of Openkore, Goenitz had very limited responses online in regards to Kaliwanagan’s message in regards why he ( Kali) supports the Openkore side. Kali’s supposed message was that he did this to “wake” Level Up from the game and point out the exploit of the game.

Nirvelli-chan-chan asks: And the question everyone wants to hear since Master Diwa's

Interview with Kaliwanagan. Any message you want to tell him? ( Hands over the megaphone)

Goenitz: Stop developing bots for society's sake.

Nirvelli-chan-chan Adds: CORRECTION: Kaliwanagan says that he does not make/or created the botkore but helps out only with the programming and users who need quick FAQ's on how to use it. He says he does this so that LUG will WAKE up and step up with their Anti Bot strategies.

Infact Kaliwanagan is WILLING to help out with LUG if given the chance. What’s your say on that?

Goenitz Responds: Giving operational help to botters is not a sincere gesture. If he's willing to help, he should not aid these people whatsoever. I will welcome help from him, but he has to prove his sincerity first, because, let's face it, I consider him an enemy. An enemy that is willing to help to achieve an enemy's goal is suspicious, isn't it?

Now here’s a part of Goenitz out of random candidness I asked which got me in stitches when our topic went to politics

Nirvelli-chan-chan Asks: What do you think about the way Gloria Arroyo is running the country and are you in favor of the National Curfew law ( Subversion Law)?

Goenitz: Gloria: If her measures, however unpopular, makes the country better, no beef.

National Curfew Law, my take: Give proper exceptions and you have a deal. ( This is coming from the guy who was frantic when he got caught in the middle of the Curfew caused by the Trillianes-Penninsula event)

My mother’s wake fell upon the same time the Trillianes event happened. When the National Curfew hit, Goenitz was again late on coming to see me at the funeral home. Milkshake came first we ended up walking the Hallway Flower of Death just to go and watch the news in regards to the traffic the standoff created. By the time he arrived he could only stay for 20 mins because the National Curfew was announced. Traffic was already bad and the next best option he him sleeping over at Rues house or with us at the Funeral home. You could imagine, Goenitz wolfing down on the pansit I gave him and cussing later on how annoying the Curfew/traffic was.

Nirvelli-chan: You have been getting death threats ( obviously) but we mods know you have some famous stalkers...some we may even think is obsessed with you, what’s your call on that?

Goenitz: On stalkers; those who do not have good intentions, watch out.

Nirvelli-chan-chan : Do you think you’re clumsy?

Goenitz proudly says: Clumsy? Why should I be clumsy? I've never been clumsy on purpose. ( at this point memories of Goenitz being clumsy in a 3day period flashed though my mind)

OK CUT!!! Now back to my expose. Goenitz doesn’t think he is clumsy….RIGHHHT

Why I can disprove that?

1. Goenitz Hit HIMSELF with a LAMP after he hit it with a restaurant menue. Oh yeah he hit himself back with the menu too
2. He kept dropping the Valkyrie USB flash drive ( The Horror)
3. He blew up a 300 Watt Capacitor for a PC by installing it with a 500Watt power….( Ohh dear lord)
4. He dropped his cellphone to beyond recognition.
5. He dropped pancit on his shirt
6. He was raving about Bots infront of the media.
7. For some reason whereever he goes a PC gets broken... hmmmm
   

Ok back to the interview

Nirvelli-chan-chan: Ok its gonna be Christmas soon, what do you want for Christmas

Goenitz: DEATH TO ALL BOTTERS!.....wait not that. BETTER COMPUTER HARDWARE! (Just in time after this interview his PC capcitator blew up)

Nirvelli-chan-chan: Ok if you will give pRO a gift for this Christmas given you have the finances and authority what would it be?

Goenitz says: Zero backlog for bot reports and instant report action.

Nirvelli-chan Asks: If you have a weakness that you would be willing to reveal, what would it be?

Goenitz: I don't reveal my weakness to potential enemies that will certainly take advantage of it.

Nirvelli-chan: A reliable source told me that Goenitz does have a weakness, besides that I have discovered…This very reliable source says that Goenitz has a weakness for a GOLDEN UNDERWEAR

Now lets go to what may be his fears.

Rue and I had different ideas what the great G-man would be afraid of. Like me Goenitz is anti Jologs, but that’s not a fear.

After my mother passed away, when he and the rest of the Mod team came to visit me. I noticed how very planted his feet were to the floor when I tried pushing him to my moms coffin.

By the way, I have an Eternal fear of the dead…and coffins so my mothers passing was really hard on me in regards to overcoming that phobia. Delicious Cake I think was the one who teased that Goenitz is afraid of dead bodies like me.

He did however, went to see my mom on his own…with a very relative distance from the coffin.

As classic as Showbiz like interviews would be, there are many in the Ragnaboard ( and even some of us in the Moderating team) wonder. If Goenitz would have a special some one, that person must be hell of a saint. So after trying to squeeze out stuff for the G-man ( by feeding him loads of drugged pancit) I went on asking him one of the top mysteries that people would want to know

Does Goenitz have a Lovelife?

Nirvelli-chan asks: What do you find in a life partner?

Goenitz: Dependability, loyalty, and wisdom

Nirvelli-chan says: Dont we all, now be a lil bit more specific *wrangles his neck*

Goenitz: the sweet caring type that dispells even the strongest of hatreds

But wait a minute, there was an issue before about Goenitz’s true gender which earned him the moniker Gay-nitz to his haters. So here I am trying to straighten the issue straight from the uhhh…horses mouth? The response shocked me…

Nirvelli-chan: Hey lets just get this long issue about your being gay IRL. What are your thoughts that you are neither man nor woman, or even possibly gay?

Goenitz shocker reply: Anything that will help in my mission will be fine. Even if it will psychologically scar them

Nirvelli-chan ( Jaw Drops): Ahhh so you admit that you may be POSSIBLY GAY???

Goenitz: well, roleplayers sometimes must pretend being a girl now, must they?

Nirvelli-chan (Grabs frying pan and whacks him with it): Answer me ng matino damn you! Are you Gay or not!!!!!???

Goenitz: ( is running around) I'm not gay! Im STRAIGHT!!

Nirvelli-chan: Ok then define LOVE!

Goenitz: Ahh LOve, like Kain R. Heinlien would say, feelings and emotions can interfere with my job, though I disagree with him that emotions are a sign of weakness.

Nirvelli-chan: Ok since you said you are not gay. Do you have a GF? If not are you available, what is it you look for in a lolita ( cough) girl?

Goenitz: I have no interest for love and the stuff I do is enough to keep me busy, in fact so busy I'm wondering if I should be a full-time MP.

Nirvelli-chan: If you resign from RB I'll skin you alive...

I still wasn’t still convinced that the public would be convinced that they will buy his response so I decided to test him myself by asking him some Babesilog questions.

Nirvelli-chan-chan: Choose the best Answer. Eat Bulaga girls or Wowowee Girls ?

Goenitz: Eat bulaga girls?

Nirvelli-chan-chan: yeah yung mga dancer sa Eat bulaga

Goenitz: them

Nirvelli-chan-chan: na pumalit sa sexbomb

Goenitz: they're okay

Goenitz: WoWowee girls are so OA

Nirvelli-chan-chan: Ohhhhkay ( I watch ABC-CBN more) Lemme change that. Angel Locsin or Angelica Pnagniban?

Goenitz: Angelica

Goenitz: She’s the marimar star, right?

Nirvelli-chan-chan: ...............

Nirvelli-chan-chan: Ok lets change that Angel Locsin or Marian Rivera ( the

Marimar Star)

Goenitz: ....

Goenitz: As you can see, hindi ako familiar sa showbiz ( Obvious ba)

I guess he’s man enough for me. Unfortunately, like most straight guys…clueless.

However even us female mods get a little bit deviceful when it comes to the idea of Goenitz being possibly gay….or any mod/GM for that matter. What happens when you leave 2 female mods alone with a glass separating each other? One Mod has a Nitendo DS and me on the other hand holding a notebook and pen?

Well in mine’s and Chocolate Milkshakes case, we communicated by writing on both the notebook and the Nitendo DS then showing it through the glass window. We were bored not to mention totally mental to the passerbys watching us pass time.

The boy Mods and GM went out to get some food. Some how one thing led to another ( with Milkshake telling me the rocking chair behind me was moving on its own) and we end up drawing all the male mods and male GM’s in a yaoi (gayyyyy) pose. We later on presented it to Goenitz with him in a famous ZhaZha Zhaturna pose.

Also I should have taken heed of the warning the whole moderator team gave me about not standing between Goenitz and his pizza.

Pizza= 1 Large Yellow Cab Pizza. And 2 minutes record time. GONE!

Anyway back to the interview

Nirvelli-chan: What will be one of your memorable moments with the mods.

Goenitz: This was a long time ago with the old mod team. Pestering a moderator couple who just recently got hooked.

By

1. catcalls

2. Clinking glasses and bottles when eating out during

Meetings

Now since you heard me blab so much about Goenitz;

Lets hear what our Mods say about him.

Moderator Cassandra: He’s just weird

Chocolate Milkshake: Hard on the outside, soft on the inside. Pretty boy Goenitz, the hardcore modcore. XD

Rue Aerith: Hmmmm the only thing that can whip Goenitz is Chuck Norris and bullhide.

Anyway, there was this time sa siege. Nagtataka siya kung bakit hindi siya makagamit ng double strafe.
Malamang kutsilyo gamit niya e.

Delicious Cake: A hardcore motherfucker who plays by his own rules in his effort to get rid of bots. A bit messed up in the head, but a great leader. Keep anything sacred away from him

Lastly to wrap up this expose. People think that Goenitz is only big in the Forums because he can hide behind some admin account. Some even claim and curse that he’s just a nobody in real life

My own take: he gets a tad bit sablay when it comes to being a sympathetic friend like, asking you to do a last min shopping online 7 hours before your flight and expecting it to be delivered within that time frame. He also gets demanding when it comes to anything abut Egames and botting secrets. He’s always hungry. But other than that he hits you in the right spot when it comes to sheering a person up and protecting them too.

Lastly, to wrap up this expose. People think that Goenitz is only big in the Forums because he can hide behind some admin account. Some even claim and curse that he’s just a nobody in real life

The ending question would be. What for him is his greatest accomplishment in real life that did not involve Ragnarok Online. In his case he has 2.

The first being is that he tops all his computer related subjects and the second. Saving a house from fire.

Goenitz: Yes, nakasave ako ng house when their gas stove went out of control using a fire extinguisher. GO Fire Extinguishers!

Ohh yeah there was his text to me one time that baffled us all mods " IM CUMMING" when asked if he was going to be late.

G Quick Facts

Allergic food: none;

Least liked food: mushrooms

Hated Food: Upo with Hibi ( dried shrimp)

Favorite Movie: Independence Day

Hated sports: none

Other games besides RO: fighting games, arcade games

Favorite dessert: gellatin

Favorite Food: Kare Kare

A note that this will be re-edited on Tuesday for more inputs

My Mothers Passing

A lot has happened in the past few weeks and for those who knew me and especially to my workmates in Ragnaboards that has been with me throughout the ordeal I have been through, this is now the toughest and hardest hurdle that came to my family’s life

November 18 me and my Dad got a call long distance that my mom had a stroke and was rushed to the Paranaque Medical center.

However the doctors refused to do any major operation to my mom unless there was a next of kin to decide.

My cousin and some friends of my mom in church then moved my mom to Makati Med. At this time they got a hold of me and handed me to the doctor who gave me the option of having my mom operated to remove a Cerebral Hemorrhage that was caused by her stroke. Her chances of survival was below 50% at that point.

I told the doctor with the last bit of emotional strength to make her survive just until me and my dad could fly over ( we were abroad)

After wards after the stress I passed out due to the fact I too have a very weak body and could not take massive amounts of emotional stress.

My dad was able to fly first. The next day I was there. And one the very first day as well my friends Nicole and Rue of Ragnaboards were the first one to be with me at the Hospital

I barely could contain myself when I saw my mom. She had tubes all over. The good news she survived the operation, bad news was that she was still in critical condition

Plus Makati Med decided not to accept our medical insurance due to some bad history it had with the insurance company nearly 4 years ago. Our bill were raking up as each day passed by.

The hard part was that my mom in her time she was comatose she did not woke up. But she did move and she seems to shed tears when she hears voices of friends and family. The only time I knew she was aware I was there when I asked her to move her lips upon me touching it was that she did.

On those time my friends from RB, the Moderators. The full cast of Goenitz, Delicious Cake, Rue, Strawberry Milkshake and Kamesh were there nearly everyday seeing me.

According to Rue in the 8 days they came to see me and my mom they rarely saw me eat, which was true. I barely ate after I saw my mom suffer the way she did.

The reality was because I harbored guilty feelings in the sense me and my mom never got along, she had begged me to come home numerous times but since we argued to much I decided to ignore her plea and even lessened my calls to her.

Any chance I got in the ICU I would cry to her to wake up so I could ask for her forgiveness, begging her to open her eyes. On lighter afternoons I had my Ipod at my moms ear, letting her listen to Philippine Madrigal Singers in hopes the songs will slowly awaken her.

She showed some progress and the doctors even said that she may soon wake up, she was moving, she even had a personality of her blood pressure going up when me and relatives talked about something she disliked.

Sen. Rene Saguisag was 2 doors down from us and on happier hours wed muss over the celebrities that visited him. But according to the nurses my mother far of all had more visitors than the famed politician. At one point there was a line of visitors that waited turns to see my mom.

We truly believed she would recover. However Nov 25 at night, I was in my room when me and our househelp felt as if some one was walkin the hallways of our house, knocking on doors and tried to open mine.

I realized what it was when I returned to the hospital the next morning, my mother had a relapse, there was a rebleeding and she did not move anymore. She was now fully dependent on life support. Come Monday the 26^th she was declared brain dead.

The doctors suggested to my father to now cut off the life support but even to my moms family wishes he refused. You see my dad spent 40 wonderful years with her, he loved her very much and refused to give up.

My mother Virginia Bonilla a former actress and loving wife and sometimes a complicated mother, passed away Nov 27.

I did not cry when she died. I was too shocked. I watched her die as each of her bodily functions failed. When we got the call from the car, I was up to my feet rushing around the house calling family, friends and picking out her dress, makeup.

I could not cry. I didn’t want to

My ex Fiancée arrived and was my stronghold on that day along with Anna. Dobie and Lumox were also supportive from afar.

My father decided to hold the funeral for 3 days. He takes the guilt worse for he feels if he was there my mom would have still been with us. He partially blames me as well though he may not speak it. The days my mom was in her burol me and my dad felt very estrange.

It broke my heart.

My friends again from RB were there and on the last day of the burol, lo and behold after a few friends from LUG made a last min change they weren’t able to attend I had a unexpected guests Egames came to my moms funeral. We had a long discussion too about some confidential matters between Level Up and Egames ( business wars)

But I had to say the Moderators pulled through so much to be there nearly everyday.

Then my mom’s church friends were there everyday. The funny part on this ordeal was each day my mom had a new hairstyle, she had a front operation at her head, so she need a veil to cover it. But since some people disagreed on the style I often see my mom with a hat, veil, no veil or whatever head design my mom friends and sisters decided ( or war on) And they even told me to make sure my mom didn’t wear shoes so that we wont have any “ dalaw”

The total guest we had were around 500. At my moms funeral my dad hired a videographer to take professional shots, however the guy was wrong timing and insensitive to ask us to pose.

At that point I wanted to grab a chair and swing it at him.

Then when it came to my turn to say farewell to my mom, though before I used to think it was stupid to hug the casket as seen on TV, I was overwhelmed with emotions.

I miss my mom. So yes I bawled. I bawled since I haven’t cried yet for 4 days. But my moms family was too traditional on “ wag luluha sa kabaong ni mama” that took 4 people to hold me down, there were making sure not a drop of my tear fall at my mom’s casket.

After the funeral my dad would always visit my mom with me. I decided to return to work to help out with the finances. However It was still hard to watch my dad wither away, he'd cry out of the blue while I would cry myself to sleep. I only pray my mom could hear how much I miss her, how she massages my head when I have a fever. I even miss her scolding me. I wish my words of love can reach her in heaven

But I also learned through this ordeal how much you would appreciate and love some one until you lose them.

Regardless of the difference you may have with that person.

I discovered too, how many people my mother has touched, how many have loved and respected her.

As I also found out who my real friends are. And some who are not…

And I want to thank them. I had friends from HS that were there, friends from AB Com 4-3, The Ragnaboards Team, Level Up, Tita Josie, Tita Merlin, INC, our pastors, Dobie, Lumox and even my friends since I was just a child that came from afar. Relatives, cousins and sisters

Thank you all

Moving on from this point will be hard. Words cannot describe both the pain and gratitude I have for now… But thank you.

Hiatus from Ragnaboards

Due a Personal Tradegy. Mod Nirvelli will be on Hiatus from Ragnaboards
For those who sent their well wishes and prayers. Thank you

Further updates will be given by next week

Time to take the Paparatzi’s off your List

Time to take the Paparatzi’s off your List

I learned again the hard way these past few days. About the whole choosing friends thing. I guess because I’m naturally friendly to most people, I trust people easily. Too easily for my good.

2x already people I met online has quoted me or rather misquoted me in things I say. The worse of course will be those things they can quote off the record or rather in simple chats or outside the word talks

I feel sad, in the sense some of these people are very popular, in some sense well respective people in the Philippine Online community.

Then I realized, that sometimes as humans err, they do things that are acts of selfishness. Makes you question

When you considered them as friends, do they consider you one as well?

On the time with the whole Hubalah of the URDR fights, I still keep weekly contacts via YM to some of the URDR and Freya people. May it be chats but most of the time them asking me random questions about Ragnarok Online stuff

The funny things is some of them I don’t even get along with. There was a former in RB, though I am still cautious, well make them 2, that I have butted heads with in the past. They are now Pming me every now and then, saying hi and in one case I had to help out on a non-RO problem. ( He needed to call some one like really long distance, I had free International Load so I lent him some of my free minutes, it was a emergency issue)

Its weird that those you have issues with in the past keep a certain level of respect to one another. And y greatest pride I would say, are for those who had a change of heart, old flamers now studious college students or workers. And there are those temperamental ones, who checks in their rage so that they would not react so rashly the next time.

But there are those that will use what ever information you may have for personal gain. A flaw I have. I talk too much. Really too much. I assumed that our friendship would protect any privacy I can confide in them. But rather feel used as later on seeing some of what I said, used on a negative purpose or personal purpose.

My bestfriend told me “ Just keep you mouth shut”

While good ol Goenitz say “ Time to take the Paparatzi’s off your List.”

I’ll have to admit, its going to be hard, the fact that on my own personal basis I keep most as good friends. But seeing that most don’t see me as one. ( SORRY FOR ME NOT BEING FRIENDSHIP MATERIAL)

I know my Christian friend will tell me to love my brothers and enemies as equal. No I don’t see them as enemies, though I just feel hurt and like that they would care.

This just doesn’t go with my job as a mod. IRL too I have friends I confide to that sad to say some actually rejoice on my bad/ sad experiences even go as far to gloat why they are happier than me or how sad my life is ( and yet I still am friends with them)

However I do count my blessings. I have Goenitz, I have PMT, My mod team despite our differences. My Best friend Dobs, Rene, Lum, KQ, Kamesh and others more that I can fully trust my secrets and they accept me for who I am and correct me in my bad ways with out discrimination. With no desire of personal gain, with an open heart and warm smiles

Now isn’t that true friendship :-)

New Sight and Halloween Hiatus

Sight and Halloween Hiatus

The few days before LU Live was quite a hype. There were a few of those in my other job as a Ragnaboards Moderator that know my YM to contact me in case of emergency.

In this case it was people asking me the final details for LU Live. Or how to get there.

I laughed ( at myself really) I felt that I was the worst person they could ask.

I am very dependent on a carpool or a driver, and in some cases Taxi.

However with the LU Live free bus and some moral support from the forums I was able to pass some good info.

On a bad note my immune system crashed last week. My cold had gone up to a fever and my headaches and near fainting spells were increasing.

So come Friday I decided to leave my Mod duties for some needed R & R. Or so I thought.

Friday Night I came home at 11:30 Pm after a good male friend of mine asked me out ( not exactly a date) to shower me with his love woes, he and his beau had some sort of cool off. Him being a Phil-am having a relationship with a pure grown Pinay, he is not used to the meaning of MU or rather “ parang kayo na hindi” . Asking me through my past or relative experiences why she wanted a time off for a week.

Saturday I went to the doctor. Eye doctor to be exact. My sight was getting worse and I know my current glasses weren’t working for me anymore. At least I wanted a prescription for my eyes.

As expected my eyesight had gotten worse. Worse in the sense that it jumped from a 200 grade to 450. And my glasses were 150-200 grade.

No wonder I was getting faint spells lately. They fitted me for contacts. My eyes were tob be dilated.

I said NO WAY. Last time my doctor did that my eyes were like saucers, It felt like I had glass for eyes and my doc kept poking this light stick at my eye.

So instead they tested it by PUFFING my eyes with air.

This was no regular air blowing. They told me to look at the green light in this lil tunnel. The tunnel was some sort of blowdart that shoot arrow sharp PUFFS of air straight to your eye.

Two puffs each.

And its not very me to do this but when I had the first puff I went

What the $!@@@!!

My new lens wont be ready for a while so the first time since my 17^th year I wore contacts. The newes tversion of Hydroclear. It was easier this time to put on. I have very dry eyes, not to mention I am sensitive to a lot of eye medication, to my surprise it was easy to use.

However my usual habit ( after 10 years of wearing glasses) of pushing my glasses up my nose was hard to break, I still feel the imaginary weight of my rims on the bridge of my nose.

Then the fever really hasn’t gone away. Terri and I a friend of mine haven’t seen each other over the week invited me to a little girl time, malling. Then later on lassoed me in helping out with Sunday school at church. I was a former gradeschool teacher, so she needed some extra hands for the after service of watching the lil-rascals till their parents came to pick them up.

However, Monday came too fast. I missed the whole LU Live ( I wouldn’t survive though through the madness with my bad eyesight) and was still to this day tending a head cold (nalamigan ang ulo).

But its back to work work work….. I seriously need a REAL R & R.

Ragnaboards, Real Life and the Good side

Blame it on Level Up I guess, after years of players who have this love hate relationship with both the game and the management

Even us as mods who have a different way of running the Official Ragnaboards, most likely because like Goenitz one for the original veterans of both LUG and the game, we kick it up old school
Follow the rules. No questions asked.
Seems harsh right? But with the recent rampant sprouts of flaming in RB, accusations of GM's not during their jobs even adding us mods in the growing list of people supposedly not doing anything.

There is something I want the people to understand about us Mods in RB

1. We are not Direct Level Up Employees, we do not have a salary from them. We Volunteer and are selected by a LUG manager to manage the Ragnaboards in accordance to the rules ist stated there. For short any free time we have outside our real life we devote it to RB.

2. We do not work inside the Level Up facility. Infact some of the mod teams are either students or have other office jobs that is not Level Up Inc affiliated, or families for that matter. So if personal puns are thrown at us, some we can brush off others hit home when it calls out some very hurtful issues those people dont know.

3. Moderators are not Level Up customer service reps. Though we do pass reports of issues we bring up to LUG, those reports are for review to our sups and we have no access to the CSR's. Not all Mods even know the GM's nor have easy access to them

4. Mods have lives and feelings to. And I will say, due to their roles as mods has become more mentally and emotionally mature and I am PROUD to be part of my mod team. Best team I have worked for even though we have our differences from time to time. And though as RB mods they are expected b the public to hold some sort of poker face, the fact we are players and normal humans who can get hurt as well is a undeniable fact. Most player overlook this but there are some that understands us as well and we are thankful for the kind sentiments they share.


Now on to the issues. Lately children these days are getting worse and worse in losing respect of what is right. In fact they are now Pming us for illegal trading, to allow flaming in the boards and asks special favors like banning who they wish us to ban and the worse I just got lately a person insisting I divulge confidential Level Up information. Of course we refuse, after 4 years in being part of LUG ( not to mention highly monitored as well) we would not stop to such lowly actions.

A person I spoke in YM said he was going to talk to GM Cassiel in becoming a mod and in my shock even would want to enforce this: ( this was after I asked him to kindly stop flaming RB)

"well ok lang mag flame as long as may KATOTOHANAN.... u should thank me na pinagtangol ko pa company mo"

Ohh wow. This person also claims to be close to one of my former managers. Possibly used that same connection in getting personal information about me ( and maybe even about my team..who knows) And posted it in RB.
Also demanded I should not be a mod after I said I will look into the issue after I finish my reports ( I was doing some office work and my YM was open...I know I shouldn't YM at work) And the fact that they will use their friendship with their so-called LUG contacts to maybe intimidate me was the one that made me shook my head. No wonder our country is being poked punned at for corruption... *sigh* And then they accuse us as the political/ unfair ones in the Boards...again WOOOOOOOOOOW

I wanted to say soo much about what that person did but rather not as of the moment.
I guess my one folly as well is that I'm very friendly towards people and would rather speak to them on a personal basis. Waiting replies in RB is too long.

This too can be a double edged sword when the people I talk to have a different motive. The type that are nice when you are talking to them and backstabbers later on And I learned this reality the hard way. But still I prefer to still talk to them on a personal basis becuase not just becuase one person thinks of me or us differently due to clouded judgments doesn't mean we shouldn't stop doing that extra mile on connecting with our forumers


But I also heard that these same people rather would like to handle this issue to people that they think as higher authority rather than discuss it with me. I don't blame them especially when they themselves think that I'm more a lowly person for them to speak to.
I seeeeeee... WOW...that is soo teledrama
But I think after I saw these posting in RB I and after having it reviewed too by non LUG and my co worker peeps; Actions speaks louder words

Other kids take the game too seriously in a more Violent matter. One infamous player and an acclaimed moderator of another pRO fan-forum has been constantly stalking one of our teammates. Gone as far as threatening his family and life.
We spoke to the head Moderator from that forum but seems like no action has been taken either.

This is not new to us. One of our female mods last year received anonymous calls at her own home. She is one of our younger mods and is very pretty too, apparently players took a liking to her after an EB with players and took things a step too far.

Its hard to treat everyone in RB equally conversation wise. Really A lot of the forumers insist we treat them as adults and treat the kids as kids, others who are kids demand we don't see them as kids but as adults while there are kids and adults who does not wish to be associated with one another. One time a poster said that just because most of the posters are children shouldn't mean I should treat him as one too.
But we cant also deny the fact that 40-60% of the personality of the people in the boards regardless of age act like children especially when mad...and sometimes that is their personality.

This poster is most likely an older person who made a very bad joke in RB and an flaming offense. After I explained my side they will try to twist your word.
Word of warning to mod aspirer in RB that this are just of the few Psychological games people will play on you.


One more light I want to also bring up. And I'll give the full Kudos here to my co-Worker Mod Kamesh who is still very new to the moderating world. She makes sure RB is in a happy state of mind. The Jellopy fields challenge along with another Mod Cassandra is one of the most successful events held in RB.

But behind her cheerful composure, is that she sleeps late at night and wakes early in the morning. Divides her IRL time to process major issues from the boards to Level Up.

I wanted to share light to this becuase people think we have ignored the issues we get from RB like the dupe thread in Midgard Congress or the URDR population issues, and the Valkyrie Bugs and other updates.

This image bellow shows that we do listen to people reports and issues and we do pass them to LUG, though the replies from LUG may take time doesnt mean we try not to have your voices heard
*small note on this I found out oct 25 that Ragnabarkadahan was a fansite forum and not an Level Up official Forum. Thanks to Master Diwa for clearing this up. The Ragnabarkadahan's popularity has been advertised in Waukster and other official LUG sites that made it look an official forum

On additional good notes. Valkyrie server despite the issues on its shaky premiere has been a success. Bot hunter had kept it a hush hush on catching bots before Valk's release and this worked marvelously. Chief Bot Hunter Goenitz and a good friend of mine headspears this operation and please read the anticipated interview he has with Master Diwa at his blog. But the real thanks goes to the players of RO
Those who sill believes a free Bot environment and helps out our MP by posting and reporting delinquents in RB, the Midgard Police and to the Level Up customer Service. Great players comes from those who strive hard in the game and still upholds righteous morale

New updates will be going on with Valk along with the other servers. For now LU Live at the World trade is the most Anticipated Event. And I hope to see people there
Good Luck to all the Participants!

The True Princess

The True Princess

Shoot me for being ignorant of whats happening to my own homeland’s social what-abouts.

Im more now into TMZ.com and US magazine ( Popular Showbiz mag for the US entertainment world)

Though through my mother buying Abante and tempo and the flicks of watching Saksi and Startalk I can get now and then Tidbits of showbiz news.

One Lazy Saturday afternoon my uncle clicked on Channel 2 to see Toni Gonzaga with some guy (he’s sort of a director) clearing up issues about Camille Pratts Pregnancy

I was like WHAT? Youre Joking right?

So for the first time in ages I actually sat down and watched the whole segment and the google the rest of the information. Seems like I was way behind on the showbiz news.

I didn’t even know Richard Gutierrez did a remake of Lupin and there’s the Marimar remake as well.

Then I noticed that She (Camille ) had a multiply account. I have a multiply account I said to myself.

I decided to see if hers was valid and not some fan site made by another actor/tress wannabe. Hers seems very legit plus backed it up with pictures of her and her family that makes her more like any other day next door Filipina.

She looks soo young for a 22 year old.

My memories of her were still intact of her Princess Sarah Days indeed. Soley because that movie was worthy of a Disneyland like fairytale. And I was a Fairy tale enthusiast and a vivid

I decided to do something really stupid, crazy and yet downright sincere. I sent her a message.

What did I say?

I said something REALLY CHEESY. Something that made me bury my head under the couch seat.

Something like.

If you need a friend its ok to talk to a stranger like me.

A letter that I think she may or may not read and just forget

Well after like 30 hours later of me being buried in my usual self. Making sure my Boss is not going crazy at his work ( I swear I act like Im his boss sometimes)

I took my 5 min break to check my email

And there in 3 lines, she said the sweetest reply of appreciation.

I have to admit she is the very first actress I ever contacted.

Im not fan crazy as most people would be. I was classmates with the likes of Billy Joe Crawford, the late Rico Yan, Ryan and Goeffrey Eigelmann, celebrities were like a normal day at school for me.

But her reply was just simple. Thanking for the support. That made me smile and admire her more

And I though to myself, see this is a true Princess or better yet a true role model actress. Not your everyday Nicole and Paris Hilton that snubs fan mail or good advice.

And if you read her blog, she is HAPPY with motherhood. She has a goal, she still has her head straight and didn’t deny her pregnancy as most common actors would.

I guess that way she IS still a role model.

Actors are human too, regardless of the responsibilities and type of person they have to be in public, like most of us, they have to face the challenge of working, falling in love, having a heart broken, trying new things, failing, succeeding, making HUGE mistakes

Learning from them and turning it to a source of renewed strength

Hahaha Im no famous actress but in a way I feel the pressure as well just by being a moderator with soo much expectation of Ragnarok Online players ( who basically dictates to you what to do)

Hahaha but that’s another Blog story

Kids These Days

Kids these days

Im at a particular time of my life that I can still understand what it is to be young and the same time take a step back and understand why adults treat the younger generation they way they do

Being strict, somewhat un-understandable and downright baduy because of how they run things with authority.

I always say that I have my personal outlook on my morals, just because of my depressive yet in a way straight laced upbringing...that coming from a very orthodox type family. Bad as my personal experiences may be I think I'm wiser and more planted to the ground becuase of those experiences.

Besides the point.

I have traveled the most of the world due to my work and I always told them especially the Pinoy Immigrants that when the day comes I have a family of my own Id rather raise them the Filipino way in the Philippines so that they can keep that sense of respect and love of Brotherhood and humility that I pride in.

Despite of course most of the American- Pinoys protest that “ FOBs” ( fresh out of the boat=Philippines) or Phil-educated people are uneducated ( even if we graduated in UP or Ateneo) and other racialistic throwbacks they can throw at me.

Nowadays I rather think to differ on my goals, not because of what those Amerinoy wannabes tell me but because of what I am witnessing of what the newer generation of Philippine kids have become.

Maybe it’s the price of our country's modernization. And families going with the flow of being broken up, and kids giving in to liberation thinking that acting arrogant and know it all is cool.

I would be guilty if I didn’t say I never went to that rebellious phase as a pre-teen but now being older and taking care of my younger family members plus my work in both Level Up and Sony gave me a broader view oh how kids have no blatant respect to authority and often use the freedom of speech or family reputation as threats

Ohh yes I got my death threats from 17 years olds.

Women are the worse gaining an attitude worse than that of a Mad Black Woman. Very unlady like.

Ragnaboards has been a hotspot for the new younger generation who carry that love hate relationship with both the Game and LUG.

However the forumers attitudes as of late has given me rising concern what have their parents been feeding them for them to talk like some Italian Mafia that can kill you and your family ( in some cases they actually get the guts to hurt some one)

Here’s a lowdown on some stuff I got

1. A Girl poster ( given she is a girl) told me to unban some one (just because she says so) and when I said I cant do that because of the severity of that person’s offense; she basically gave me sarcastic comments about my mod-style, life style and what nots.

2. Another girl ( given shes girl) Degraded my educational status too, ohh then I realized she made a post that she would never follow the rules, regardless; after her account was banned for derogatory language.

3. A prominent RB-er who has some run in bith with the game and questionable offenses that I have no hold off, has promised me PERSONALLY that he would cease his trashtalking in the boards. When he was scantioned not too long after our talk he sent me a VERY BEAUTIFUL email/pm trashtalking me. Worse this person has sent out threats and later on his enemies presented him with “ I will hurt you when I see you on World Trade Center” message that basically is getting ridiculously out of hand

4. Another person warned me to look out for my job after I warned a certain thread to stop trash talking.

5. A moderator’s mother was insulted after that forumer too was sanctioned. That Moderators mother has passed away already

Some people know they way I work. I don’t do favoritisms and rather I reply better in PM because I never believe airing out disputes in public would resolve anything. But now I just realized, that I am not battling isolated children who have just attitude problems.

I’m against a generation who believes acting the way they do is the right and easy way.

This dawned on me after I received a voicemail from my nephews History and English teacher that my nephew has been picking fights with his teachers ( females) and has been threatening even the girls at his school ( who’s brothers are members of Frats that can hurt him if he’s not careful)

And when asked why he does it, he’s reasoning was 1. Everyones doing it 2. He was just being cool

My nephew is only 15 years old. His older brother an avid RO player, was hunted down not too long ago in school by a syndicate gang after he double crossed some one on illegal trading in pRO. This cost his brother 1 year out of school and traumatized. Even that didn’t fazed him.

I know my uncle and aunt. They tried their best giving him the best education and everything but sometimes you just ask when did the Apple just go bad?

Too Much cafe and Oven Heat

Its has been a long time since my last post.

A lot has happened over the past months since my last post. Plus with the temporary shut down of Ragnaboards

Lets start with this past 2 weekends.

Our church did a Café and Arts nights, complete with the red carpet paparazzi treatment.

Only members of the committee who organized the café night had assigned lists of what to bring.

This being one of the MOST successful café night we had, having around 300 guests since 4-9pm I guess not all of the organizers had a correct guess on how much supply of drinks should they accommodate for that number. Not to mention you have 14-16 year olds running the barista who was putting way too much Ice on the ice lattes made us run out of the much needed water and ice we need.

I ended up spending round 2000P on re-supplying the whole bar of needed juice, syrup, water, ice and even the whipp cream.

My good friend Terrilyn was one of the organizers was too busy with the performance stage to back me up. Lumox was in a Bday party and Mike was rapping as part of the stage performances.

On an end note things went well in the end. But I was exhausted and broke so I just went straight home afterwards after taking a few pictures with the gang.

Then comes this weekend. Apparently Terri was somehow entered in this cooking competition Iron Chef Style, however the organizers DID NOT inform her that she was to compete. She basically drag me to help, she was to be main chef.

We went to a specialty market where I was planning to do a poached salmon fillet in coconut cream and lemon pepper. Something I DID for the first time and bought special cut rib eye for Apple and vegetable Beef Sukiyaki.

Disaster strikes 20 mins before the competition time

1. Our teammates were missing or worse they were there but BLATANTLY refused to help

Except Ernie who gave us Aprons but he was part of the rival team so he cant really be with us

2. They said we have stoves but later told us we were to provide our own.
3. We were the total underdogs, with this jerk coming up to our booth telling us we didn’t have a chance.

Some how we were able to pull things out, We were able to buy a cheap portable stove and Lumox gave us the needed prop tent to shade us from the heat.

We finished first, salmon was very easy. But we were last to be judged. A lot of the crowd were awaiting for the judges to finish their taste test, the crowd was allowed to partake of the gormet meal, especially since ours was salmon a favorite of guests

We didn’t win, but even the judged noticed that the original team DID not supported us ( though they were lingering at our booth when the winners announcement was beginning) And the judge announced how sad it was to see the lack of support while the other teams had 6 people in the team.

There also the drama in the after party we had in a specialty pastry café, Terri being a very moody person nearly caused a rift with one of her committee friends, and I had to calm her down, not to mention her bad mood was very obvious to the rest that it alienated her.

I love doing these activities, And I LOVE supporting Terri however my wallet now is barren and my weekend exhausted so I think I am taking a break.

To my fellow church members who may be reading this, This is NOT a sign of me defying the whole brotherhood of the youth, but as you can see the events weren’t perfect and hopefully we can learn from such trials.

The Anime Expo 2007 Report

This weekend my bestfriend D and I went to the Anime Expo in Long Beach.
I promised that while I was there to GM Tristan that I will try to look for signs of Ragnarok Online while in the convention
Last years Anime convention was held in Anaheim, this year they tried doing it in supposedly a bigger function area in long beach even acquiring the nearby Renaissance Hotel Ballroom for the Masquerade Ball ( which I missed) and a Anime Dance scene.

Unfortunately it was more chaotic this year. t of the kids lined up till outside the Convention center as compared to last year the line was only indoors. The human traffic was congested since there were no signs telling you were exactly do you need to go. Unless you can read very fine print of small bond papers rare posted over doors (given you can find a door)

A lot of people may comment that the dress up this year was better but not for me. Then again I never got to see the Masquerade ball so I can’t exactly comment on that.

Most of the main events were

AX IDOL ( Voice dubbing contest) – they asked me to join for the voice of Haruhi but I declined since I have no idea what to do with a Gutar Hero for 1^st Prize

Masquerade Ball

AX Dance Party

Bandai Panel forum

Gundam Exhibit

Chiaki Ishikawa Concert

I was able to find some Ragnarok Online items. One was a Korean Illustrators Book featuring 3 of the Official RO illustrators, SR Youkan being my favorite however I didn’t buy due to the cost ( 50$)

There was one who Cosplayed as a LoliRuri and an official kRO FanBook 2005 title again expensive.

There was some anime movies veiwing like that of Hikaru no Go. WITH HORRIBLE Dubbing but great story line. And a personal favorite,Howls Moving Cstle.

They did featured some mmorpgs, one of the Being GAIA online as one of their primary sponsors. Lineage was the one last year. Final Fantasy Online too was featured and there was this other game being sponsored by NIX America, but I couldn’t read the name right.

We went to the gaming room where the did MMORPGS to console, a Halo 3 competition, Naruto card game, but we had to leave because my friend commented “ smells like geek” No seriously the room smelled like bad breath.

Later on the night me and my bestfriend went to check out the AX Dance. The Masquerade ball was more formal doing basic waltz and swing but the AX Dance was the clubbing scene for the anime expo people. Ok Im not a discriminatory person ( sorta) and I am part geek, but the whole room was dull of cosplayers dancing around smealling really HORRIBLY sweaty and it was the GEEK scene for clubbing. The DJ was cool don’t get me wrong, the songs were ok, even had a Michael Jackson dancer on stage but the fact I was dancing and then suddenly 2 cosplayer girls suddenly got at it ( yes made out) they were 18, and guys were wooting around, some with braces while wearing a weird box on their head….that was just uhh….I don’t even know how to describe it.

Here is a sampler Video as well

The Fair has come to Town

Today I went out with friend to the Del Mar Fair. Its like the BIG Bang carnavale type of thing.

Unfortunately as much there were men in our group they were all wussies clinging to us girls like 3 year olds when we passed by the rides. One was even scared of the Ferris Wheel. ( wow my hero….)

Some of the things we did was taking pictures on this HUGE car. And I LOVE BIG cars like the type that goes to Monster Truck Derbys. If I was filthy rich I would buy one and drive it to work everyday

Then after being pissed off from our Chicken boys on doing the rides, they made me, the geek looking one joke on climbing up the rock wall. ( Sporting of course a hottie trainer there)

I have a nasty habit of doing things to prove myself even if its stupid… BOY WAS I STUPID.

So I climbed the rock wall, barefoot wearing a silk top under humid weather. Round 10 feet up the wall, and I was pretty doing good on the beginners climb, I noticed my footings were getting smaller. Worse, my hands were starting to perspire being it not used to doing any type of extreme climbing. So around 11 feet up from the ground I had to come down, rappelling but at least I proved one of the guys that I can do what boys like them chicken wussies cannot.

I'll be coming back for more festivities, next week will be anime convention